Limbo
So last night I did a great deal of thinking before I actually fell asleep which was roughly around 2:30 AM … I was thinking about my life in the now and how at the moment I feel relatively bored with my life. Now, that’s not to say I’m not happy- but for once (and I almost think this is a good thing) I’m putting things in “the now” as opposed to judging myself for things I’ve done in the past and worrying about the future. Note: if you don’t know me very well, I never relax about ANYTHING. Anyway, as I was saying, lately I’ve been feeling somewhat bored. I’m trying to stay optimistic about the future and I absolutely cannot wait for next semester to begin, but for the time being I’m just kind of in limbo. I am craving a change, preferably in my living situation, which probably will not come as soon as I’d like it to. Saving up money for an apartment and school is tough right now, but I think I can do it by next semester (hopefully!) if I manage my finances better. And my free time! I think the reason I’ve been bored is because I’ve fallen into a mundane routine of the same thing, day to day. And it’s my fault. So, I’m going to make a tentative “to-do list” that will ultimately make me healthier and feel more positive! Some of these things are hobbies and interests of mine that I have drifted away from, but it’s primiarily a medley of things I enjoy.
- Baton twirling
- Writing
- Working out more! (this is a big one)
- Get my hair done (change is good!)
- Visit my friends in Boston
- Volunteer work
- Clarinet
- ZUMBA!
So, as you can see, I have quite a few ideas floating around in my head. I’ll probably elaborate on those further and definitely add more, but that’s the tentative “me” list! Feeling more positive today already.
